Confuse??

I was thinking.. What will it be like when you don't have to work, enjoying all the time without any worry tomorrow you'll wake up without any money in your wallet?

Sumpah aku penat! Penat zahir dan batin la pendek kata.

Kenapa ye duit tu perlu jadi penting sangat? Ah nyampah!

I was thinking to quit my job. But then i try to think again, "Mya, you ade sugar daddy ke?"

Ya right. If I quit, sape nak tanggung aku pulak kan? Kalau orang dulu2 senang je. Mak bapak kahwinkan, kurang satu beban. Masalah sekarang, seorang pun tak nak masuk minang aku. Haiz.


P/s: Oh well. Guess I'm in a middle of a confusion right now.

Bright Star..

Looking up the sky, I could feel the pain inside me. The wound's bleeding, again. Who can really understand what I've been through all this time? Who can really I trust to keep a secret I've been protecting all along?

There, I see a very bright star, brightest compared to the rest of 'em. It owns my sight. I wish I could reach it, so that it can shine not only the sky, but my life as well.

"Di mana kan ku cari ganti,
Serupa denganmu.."

You're my charming star. I need nothing else. Just stay by my side and lighten up my life, as you always do. And I will never, ever giving up on you.


P/s: I've found you.

Happy New Year!

Pathetic beginning of the year.
Oh well. I should have thought so.
Happy New Year guys. I will always love you!


P/s: "Apa azam tahun baru kau Mya?"
"Azam? Apa tu? Boleh makan ke?"

Why me?

Have you ever being forced to do something you never approved of?
Or have you forced yourself to do something for someone else's sake?
Even when it hurts yourself that much, and end up crying alone?
I know I'm in this situation. That's why I'm talking nonsense like this right?

Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better.

P/s: Why me? Why not you?

If only..

Hari nak masuk sekolah approaching once more. Tak puas cuti lah!

Aku sebagai seorang perempuan selalu dihimpit rasa gundah gulana (cewah ayat!). Kalau suatu hari nanti aku kahwin, atas dasar cinta, mungkin ke cinta tu akan hilang? Of course! Why not?

Kalau lelaki yg aku kahwini tu, janji akan mengutamakan aku dalam segala hal, mungkin ke suatu hari nanti, bila diberi pilihan, dia akan utamakan keluarganya berbanding aku? Yaaa.. Why not?

Ok fine. Aku taw aku selfish. Syurga seorang lelaki akan tetap di kaki ibunya, sampai bila2. So aku sebagai seorang wanita yg suatu hari nanti akan bergelar isteri kepada seorang lelaki, takde hak nak mempertikaikan hukum yg dah ditentukan Tuhan.

Cuma apa yg aku boleh harapkan, diri ni, jangan diabaikan. Izinkan aku berbakti kat kau (bakal laki aku) dengan penuh ikhlas.


P/s: Lelaki2 sekalian, amalkan bersikap adil!