exhausted

i wish i could be selfish enough.
i wish i could do something to change my fate but i just can't.
when everything goes wrong, i don't know who to blame.
i'm tired blaming my ownself but i don't have the guts to point it to somebody else.
i wish i could redo every wrong steps i took so that everything will be perfect the way i want it.
but it's too late.
i'm too weak, i don't have the courage, and i don't even have brain for that!


p/s: i hate myself!