Love, or what?

dalam dilema. nak putuskan or teruskan?

kalau teruskan, aku tak sanggup nak tertanya-tanya lagi sampai ke mana arah tuju kitorang. kalau putuskan, mampu ke aku hidup dengan orang lain, dan bukan dia?

love is stupid sometimes. why you, love, have to come and go? can't you just stay where you belong?


p/s: teringin sangat! ya Allah, kabulkan la doaku ni. amin!

I won't give up!

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold 

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it 

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use 

For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am 

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up.

P/s: Now I'm wondering whether I can still keep this promise I gave you. Why it has to be so hard between us?

Distance

The sun is filling up the room and I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do, right now?
I wish we would just give up
'Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love 

Please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now
I'll give you everything I am
All my broken heartbeats until I know you'll understand 

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up, up, up? 

And I keep waiting for you to take me
You keep waiting to say what we have 

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long till we call this love, love, love?

P/s: I love you. Will you hear that?

What's on my mind?

one of my best friend, holwatun, dah nikah semalam. esok majlis dia. haih, serius aku tak sangka, and aku still rasa macam tak percaya yang dia dah kahwin weh. sumpah rasa macam tak percaya. cepatnya masa berlalu. rasa macam baru seminggu lepas kitorang habis spm kot.

jealous tak aku? of course! rasa jealous gila! tapi bukan dengki kay. aku tekankan kat sini jealous je bukan dengki. jealous kenapa? sebab aku tak sampai seru lagi kot. tapi apakan dayaku, ketentuan tuhan kan. sabar je la dulu. lagipun member2 lain, saedah, shakira, nabila, aqilah, faezah, atin, sakinah, syazwani, takde seorang pun di antara kitorang yg kahwin lagi. so, what's the fuss about mya? aku tak nak terus buat dosa la!

hurm, aku nak share satu benda kat sini. aku suka buat innocent bila kakak2 kat tempat kerja aku mula sembang kias2 pasal benda dalam kain. paham tak paham tak? well, i think that technique is no longer working. but then, what should i do? join diorang sembang sekali? karang kata aku macam2 lagi ada la. tapi serious, kadang2 aku memang tak boleh nak tangkap maksud diorang. terlalu mendalam. and kalau aku rasa macam da malas sangat nak layan diorang, aku buat pekak je. pastu kata menyampah sebab aku buat2 innocent. what the heck? aku tak dengar la time tu! tapi aku diam je la. malas nak bertekak. kena hormat mereka sebagai kakak2 yg dah banyak tolong aku masa kerja, and dah banyak bergelak tawa dengan aku masa aku tak berapa nak happy. kadang2 rasa bengang jugak bila diorang perlekeh "budak2" macam aku ni. but then again, what can i do? bersabar je la. cuma satu, tak suka bila diorang mula tanya hal2 agama hanya sebabkan aku tanya raya haji dengan raya korban tu perayaan yang sama ke tak. okay, i admit that was my bad. tertanya pulak depan orang non-muslim yg tahu pasal ni. budak muda zaman sekarang macam aku yg free hair ni, mana lah nak tahu hal agama kan. but you don't have to be so judgemental on that am i right? hanya sebabkan satu jenis perayaan yg diraikan sekali, you guys mula nak assume macam2? that was not right.

p/s: lepaskan perasaan! harghhhhhh!