Graduation

it's not a proper one. but since i've finished my stpm without flying colours yesterday, which means i'm done schooling, i've graduated! hahahaha!
agak sedih la. people graduated with flowers and teddy bears in their hands but i have nothing.
however, my super duper generous boyfie gave me one thing that i won't ever forget or let go for quite a long term. it's my new white skin Sam! it's quite big but quite thin as well. penat godek2 sam seharian daripada semalam. hahaha! seriously, i love sam! seronok main game dengan dia!
so once again i would like to give my deep appreciation to EncikMistik. thanks a lot dear. i've never expected all of this. u really are amazing! ( bodek sikit :P )

p/s: thought of working and no longer studying kills me!

Which one are you?

Which baby are you?


JANUARY BABY
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-earth. Stubborn.

FEBRUARY BABY
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.  Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to each goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH BABY
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

APRIL BABY
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

MAY BABY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

JUNE BABY
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. A wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself.

JULY BABY
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be with friends. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST BABY
Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self control. Kind-hearted. self confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain". Caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "Charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

SEPTEMBER BABY
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

OCTOBER BABY
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

NOVEMBER BABY
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month.

DECEMBER BABY
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music.


P/s: Just for fun. Don't take it too seriously alright? :-)

Food hunting

having lunch at the garden. eating something out of ordinary today. this is my new mission. going food hunting all the way! especially when poket still tebal!

superb garden scenery in this cafe. very nice.

there's one white piano in the middle of the cafe.

my drink. cawan dia pun teramat la cantik!

our meal for today~

orang lapar. tak reti tengok kiri kanan dah.

p/s: nothing special here. for me the food is okay laaa. i would prefer domino's more. for those who think that money is not a problem, you are always welcomed here. tapi serius, tempat ni sangat cantik!

A lesson

boys will always be boys. will never change even the world gone upside down.

thanks for remind me that. i thought time will heal everything. yes it did. but time has never touch you. so once again, i'm drowning in a disappointment.

i'm not going to blame you. it's me. i'm too reckless. i shouldn't have trust any of your words.

i'm 99% sure that you don't love me. but it's that 1% that keeps me going..

p/s: not anymore.

A thousand more..

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall,
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow. 

I have died everyday waiting for you.
All along I believed I would find you.
Time has brought your heart to me. 

I have loved you for a thousand years,
I'll love you for a thousand more.

I keep looking for my prince charming without realizing he's standing right in front of me.
I keep thinking he's the right one for me when the truth is someone I never thought of is the one that's right for me.
I keep saying that I can never love anyone other than my first love but then he came, hold my hand and make me realize that he's the only love I'll ever need, he's my first and my last, my immortal, my other half.


P/s: I'll stay by your side, forever.

But sometimes it hurts instead..

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded,
That for me it isn't over. 

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.

Regrets and mistakes,
They are memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? 

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg. 

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

It hurts, telling someone you love to move on and save his love for someone else out there. While deep inside you're bleeding, hoping that he'll save his love only for you, hoping that he'll realize you're the only one for him,  hoping that he'll fight for you once more, hoping that you can fix everything again, and hoping this break up will never happen.


P/s: When you asked me to forget everything, it was like you requested to rip my heart out!

randomness~

shit aku dah gemuk! (macamlah pernah kurus :P ) aku kena start diet. mulai esok, tiap pagi aku akan spend 30 minit lompat tali baru mandi makan and study semua. arghhhhhh tekanan lah!

kadang2 tu, aku ada banyak cita2 yang aku nak capai. nampak macam senang tapi bila dah lalui apa yang perlu dilalui untuk capai benda tu, macam2 jadi sampai semangat yang mulanya berkobar-kobar terpadam terus. haiz. kenapa?

aku tak suka bila teringat balik benda yang pernah buat aku sangat sakit hati. rasa menyesal akan hadir sebab aku tak buat benda yang patut aku buat time tu. sumpah shit! tapi benda dah lepas kan. apa je aku boleh buat. bersabar je lah mya. tuhan bersama orang2 yang sabar~

aku pantang betullah bila ada orang hina agama aku. kau tunggu je lah masa kau nanti weh! baru kau tahu panas ke tak api neraka tu! bengang!

life seems perfect for me now. except for the upcoming exam! if only this will last for a long time..


p/s: Ya Allah! permudahkanlah soalan2 stpm tu untuk aku Ya Allah! aku mohon sangat2~

251011

one of my most memorable date. :)

me and my love celebrate our day with my bro and sis menyemak nak ikut sekali. tempat tujuan, genting highland! my favorite place!

kitorang merasa jugak naik kereta kabel.

pemandangan dari dalam kereta kabel ke bawah.

selamat datang!

sebelum naik space shot. mulut masing2 nganga keseraman.

muka selepas mengalami keseraman space shot. jantung masing2 dah tertinggal kat atas. huwaaaa!

romantica de amor la konon. haha!

my bro jakun dapat naik fun kart.

detik2 penyampaian hadiah kepada EncikMistik.

cucuk hidung tu jangan tak cucuk!

dalam shopping complex tempat indoor games terletak.

dalam chocolate factory.

muka tak boleh blah dapat naik kuda tu.

i'm captain jack sparrow!

time ni baru lepas hujan. kabus tebal sangat!

we're a thousand days old already, and i really hope we'll celebrate another 1000th day anniversary on and on, until our last breath..

p/s: walaupun adik aku menyemak sekali, tapi takpe lah. nasib baik diorang pandai ceriakan suasana. haha.

happyyyyyy

sangat2 excited sebab tak lama lagi STPM akan tamat untuk aku! muahahaha! serius tak sabar! but at the same time, risau pulak sebab apa pun tak study lagi, tapi aku lepak je. arghh tekanan lah! macam mana nak dapat keputusan cemerlang nih!

aku bukanlah jenis romantik sangat. jiwang lagilah jauh! tapi in a relationship, aku pentingkan memori yg kitorang create. well, like people said, memory lives forever. and aku tak tahu dari mana aku boleh tergerak nak kira berapa hari kitorang dah jalin hubungan ni, but obviously i did! and we're going to celebrate our 1000th day anniversary soon, really soon. bila pulak la agaknye nak celebrate wedding anniversary kitorang kan? haha! keep on dreaming mya keep on dreaming~

actually aku dah lama simpan niat nak beli instax camera, ala yg bila kita snap tu, picture automatic boleh keluar terus from that camera. tapi bila aku fikir balik, buat apa laaa semua tu. cinderella ada, aurora pun dah ada, so what's the point keep on membazir for another camera? better beli handphone beb! haha. tapi who knows la kan, tetiba rezeki murah pulak. lalalalala..

okay i need to continue study now. study mya study!


p/s: 251011

sometimes..

yup sometimes i hate my father because he can't be a perfect father for us but i hate myself even more cos i can't be a perfect daughter the way every father wants.

yup sometimes it's hard to understand why are they doing things that doesn't make sense in a certain situation but it's even harder when you realize you're doing exactly the same when finally you've been through the same situation.

if you can't understand why are we acting like this, it's okay. just keep quiet. it's better than trying to prove that we were wrong and you were right. cos you'll make things worse, and i'll no longer lean on you when i'm in a tough situation. you'll kill my trust i've had on you. or maybe i'll just save that trust for somebody else, who knows. i'm tired cos you never tried to listen, you never tried to live in my shoes.


as for your unresponsiveness upon my request last few days, i'll assume you agree with it. you see, i was alone in my own thoughts, so i have to decide on my own as well. you might not agree, but i don't think we can do anything about it. it's final!


p/s: burning hot!

exhausted

i wish i could be selfish enough.
i wish i could do something to change my fate but i just can't.
when everything goes wrong, i don't know who to blame.
i'm tired blaming my ownself but i don't have the guts to point it to somebody else.
i wish i could redo every wrong steps i took so that everything will be perfect the way i want it.
but it's too late.
i'm too weak, i don't have the courage, and i don't even have brain for that!


p/s: i hate myself!

sesalan

aku terdelete one whole folder of my secondary school memories. rase macam nak nangis je. kenapa la aku cuai sangat? arghhh bengang bengang!

i lost half of my memories as well now. what can i do~


p/s: malang tidak berbau!

Luna!

i swear i can see her smiling!

besar da Luna sekarang ye.

ade la pulak yg mistakenly thought aku kebas kucing dia. haish.. akak pasti 100% dik, kucing yg adik cari tu bukan kucing yg ni. percayalah~ baru 3 bulan kucing ni, bukan 6 bulan. masih was2? masih ragu2? meh la datang rumah. pastikan sendiri ye?


p/s: introducing my little baby! :D

isu semasa

rasa seronok pulak bila baca something pasal diri sendiri. especially bila baca cerita yg orang lain karang untuk kita. terasa cam excited. wah!

aku tunggu lama dah. ingatkan dia tak perasan. sekarang baru aku tahu cerita sebenar. tapi apa je aku mampu buat. hidup kat dunia bukan sendiri2. orang kat sekeliling pun kena jaga. erk. ingat aku kak yong apa?

semua berpunca daripada aku. so nampaknya, aku jugak la yg kena hentikan semuanya. tapi patut ke aku buat sesuatu yg aku sendiri tak pernah relakan?

aku tak pernah faham. pintu hati aku dah tertutup ke untuk bukak buku? ah dilema!


p/s: ce teka ce teka~

Month..

People born in:

January are bold and alert.
February are lucky and loyal.
March are naughty and genius.
April are caring and strong.

May are loving and practical.
June are romantic and curious.
July are adventurous and honest.
August are active and hardworking.
September are sensitive and pretty.
October are stylish and friendly.
November are nice and creative.
December are confident and freedom loving.

P/s: Let's say I'm April? =)

Me now!

It's funny. One day you fight like hell with him, the other day you guys being like happy forever couple.

I don't know how long we'll be together, but I really wish this will last forever. I want just him and not anyone else.

Being with him, make me feels secure. I have somewhere to lean on when I'm done, I have a shoulder to cry to when I'm upset, and I have a statue to hear me talking non-stop when I'm extremely happy. Hahaha!

However, it feels bad when you realize, you're the only one who cause chaos while the other party do nothing other than trying to clear things up. It feels bad doesn't it? If you know what I mean..

I'm nothing but a troublemaker. I'm extremely stubborn only-god-knows-how. And sometimes I'm lack in judgement. He overcome all of this. You see.. How different we are? But it's amazing. How he can do what he did, accept me the way I am? Seriously, I can't stop thinking bout that and keep on asking him to consider his choice day by day. Stupid aren't I? But really, I just want the best for him.

Well, maybe this is what we call love. I just wish it will stay this way forever or even better as long as we hold our breath.

P/s: I keep on posting bout love matters huh? Well, it's MY blog!

Random Feeling

I wish I have no one to think of right now.

My boyfriend don't trust me.
My family matters keep bothering me.
My past never leave me.
Now, my once immortal trying to deceive me, again, with his words. And I'm so stupid to fall for it all over again, keep replying his message.

No I don't love him.
Yes I might miss him.

But it doesn't mean I love him!
I love you! Only you! Please understand...

I wish I have the guts to live all alone. Because that's the only thing I think of right now.
You can't give me back what I've gave to you. My heart, my life. If only love can't do, then just leave me alone in my own world, which has no you!!

My Aurora

MUAHAHA!
Akhirnya! Apa yg aku impikan tercapai juga! Terima kasih banyak2 aku ucapkan kepada EncikMistik sebab tolong aku merealisasikan impian aku yg over ni.
Esok jugak aku akan mulakan operasi menembak aku! Aku takkan toleh kiri kanan dah!

P/s: Habis lah blog ni penuh dengan picture2 tak bertauliah pasni. Haha! Oh ya, aku nak namakan benda ni Aurora. :DDD

EncikMistik

P/s: I want to spend my lifetime loving you..

Again..

I didn't ask too much from you.
But if you think it is, then I'm sorry.
I'm not perfect, I didn't expect you to be.
I just want the best for you.
I want you to be happy, safe and sound.
Cos I can't stand losing you.
But you'll never understand that, no matter how hard you try.

P/s: We need time.

Aidilfitri 2011

Dengar2 esok dah raya. Yay! Hahaha! Tahun ni aku shopping kemain lagi beb. Takpe la. Bukan tiap tahun buat pun kan.. Sale banyak gila lah!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semua. Maafkan segala dosa dan salah aku selama ni kay? Aku hanyalah insan yang hina.

P/s : Hopefully, everything goes well this eid. Amin..

Zodiac.

NEVER believe in 3 people : Sagittarius, Aries, Pisces. They are the most selfish and mean.
NEVER lose 3 people : Taurus, Cancer,Capricorn. They are the most sincere and true lovers.
NEVER leave 3 people : Virgo, Libra,Scorpio. They can keep secrets, friendship, and they can see your tears.
NEVER reject 3 people : Leo, Gemini,Aquarius .They are true, honest friends. :)


P/s: Aku copy paste je. Tak tau la boleh pakai ke tak benda nih. Jangan marah aku kay! aku tak berdosa!

Regret.

We'll never know what we have until we lose them..
I think this is true.

Whatever happen, he'll be the one who'll come to me.
Until one day, when he's no longer there.

Now I'm longing for him to come and comfort me the way he always did.
But will that day ever come again?


P/s: I just miss the old you. Please do come back.

MyLuna.

Isn't she adorable? :DDDD

Biru mataku~

Biru and kuning.

Best tidur kat kaki mummy ye Luna?

Shhh.. Don't tell anyone I'm hiding here!

Such a cutie!

Bersinarnya mata dia! Ops terkangkang sikit lak.

Teddy bear dari mummy.

Penat berlarian, masa untuk bertiduran.

Seperti biasa, kucing peliharaan aku semuanya aku jumpa tepi jalan je. Or maybe tepi rumah. Tapi aku pedulik hape. Aku ambik diorang, curahkan kasih sayang aku kat diorang and jadilah mereka hak milik mutlak aku. Tapi aku tak simpan diorang dalam rumah. Bapak aku tak kasi. Kalau diorang masuk rumah pun kejap je. Tu pun sebab nak bagi makan. Tak pun time bapak aku takde kat rumah. Haha!

So far aku dah kehilangan dua kucing, iaitu Bella and Yukita. Kucing2 yg tinggal tak banyak. Meon, Jelita, Salji and dua ekor anak dia, Nikita and Kikita.

Kucing putih yg hyper gila kat atas ni pulak, aku bela secara personal. Aku bawak pegi rumah sewa aku, letak dalam bilik, aku la yg bagi dia makan and minum, taik dia pun aku la yg buang. Hah cam jaga anak pulak rasanya. Nama dia Luna. Bukan Luna Maya ok! Luna Mya takpe.

Tak tau la nape. Tapi aku rasa attached sangat kat Luna. Maybe sebab mata biru dia kot. Berzaman aku nak bela kucing mata biru. Harap2 kaler mata Luna tak tukar la nanti yek! Pastu Luna memang teramat2 hyper and comel. Walaupun dia sekor2 je, habis satu bilik aku dia terjah. Tak tau la pe tujuan dia berlari ke hulu ke hilir. Habis kaki aku pun dia sambar. Ey nasib baik aku sayang ko Luna oit! Then dia memang manja. Suke2 hati je naik atas aku then jilat2 telinga aku.


P/s: Sok nak bawak dia pegi klinik jumpa doktor suntik vaksin. Aku tak nak dia ada apa2 penyakit cam Bella. Huwaaaa Bellaku!

Kasih dan sayang.

Putih: I'll take care of you while you sleep brother.
Oren: Thanks sister.

P/s: You can create your own version if you like. :)

Tiada kaitan dengan yg hidup atau yg dah tiada~

Well.. This entry is more about my personal opinion.

There's one girl I know. Sometimes we're arguing over one thing with two different opinions.
I'm not saying that I'm always right. I'm not.
But after one incident, she makes me realize one thing bout her.
She didn't have this kind of spirit to protect her own religion.
Sumpah aku kesian kat dia.
Ya ALLAH, bukakan la hati dia tu..

"Tak payah buat botox nak kekal muda, amalkan ambik air sembahyang conform kekal cantik!"

Yaaaa.. Everyone can say that including me!
The thing is, iman kau tak kuat langsung! Setakat cakap camtu, eyyy kau betul2 buat aku annoying la beb!
Just for the sake of politics yg akan untungkan orang luar instead of our own saudara seislam kau pergi sokong and for the sake of "playsafe" kau kata tak memihak kepada mana2 pihak, I see one more thing in you, POKERFACE!

I'm just hoping negara ni akan kekal aman dan kekal sebagai negara Islam. Not that aku kata aku sokong gov. No I'm not. Tapi aku lebih tak suka bila rakyat buat something macam orang tak berpelajaran sebab nak tegakkan what they called 'keadilan'. Try cara lain boleh tak? Dah la jadikan orang kuat yg sokong IFC ngan kes Lina Joy korang punya ketua. Eyy mana perginya akal waras korang tu?

Ultrakiasu kata Malaysia kepunyaan orang asli? Pergi PUIII sama kau! Bodoh ke apa? Pergi jumpa pakar sejarah tanya! Bongok je!


P/s: Takde kaitan ngan yg hidup and mati la sangat.. :P

Cousin and nephew.

 

I wish the best for you guys future.. :)

Stupid naive wise!

The stupid neither forgive nor forget,
the naive forgive and forget,
the wise forgive but do not forget.

P/s: I prefer being wise :D

Forgiveness?

Is it wrong if I wanna forgive someone cos i want to?

No it is not..

But does it worth it?

I don't know..

I wanna talk with someone bout this. Guess I just haven't found the right person yet.

I hate it, being dilemma. And I hate it, when I'm being the one who still can't let go.

They move on, and I'm stuck in my own memory.

If only memory can be deleted, I'm sure it won't come bugging me anymore when I've tried so hard to remove it.

Okay fine. I'll try to teach myself a heartless life so that I will stop thinking stupid things again and again..

P/s: Just so you know, I trust you with all my heart dear..

Cita-cita~

All of a sudden, I dreamed of having a DSLR. Sampai tak boleh tido aku dibuatnye. Gambar cantik from DSLR betul2 buat aku jatuh cinta!

P/s: I'm so sorry EncikMistik..

Complicated

Don't say that you understand me cos you never did.

A lesson! :)

"Let go of your ex before you run into the next. Otherwise you're jumping into the future while holding onto the past."

P/s: I love my future! Thanks to you EncikMistik! =)